Dreams of a Coyote
Musings on the Feri Tradition of the Craft...
Saturday, July 20, 2013
Wednesday, June 12, 2013
The Lady Below
Whispers
sweet like honey,
Caresses in
the dark recesses of my mind.
The Goddess
Below has chosen
And I answer
I listen
Down into
the depths of the Earth
To the Realm
of the Fae
To the Land
of Magic
To the
Underworld
I follow
Her psychic
scent stirs me
As she
beckons my serpent to rise
Entranced by
her beauty
That
radiates beyond physicality
I rise
Spirits
entwined in our Great Rite
The way to
my enlightenment is clear
In our
embrace she shows me
For she is
my mirror
I fear
My power is
more than I knew
As is the
case for all
But in this
moment she shows me
The Truth of
my Being
I AM
I AM her
consort
I AM her
Twin
I AM her
lover
I Am Her
I AM
Saturday, June 8, 2013
Will and Faery
I would like to preface this post saying that I am not a
member of any OTO or Thelema related body.
My opinion comes from personal reading of the subject, and so I speak
from that basis.
Thelema, as I have come to understand it, is very compatible
with Faery in general. My training that
led up to initiation was geared toward strengthening and developing my
connection to my own God Soul, or my own Holy Guardian Angel. By opening that communication, by bringing
myself into alignment with all my parts, I have tried to seek out my True Will,
that which is my Great Work and purpose.
When that communication is made, the communication between the part of
the self that is God, and through that God Herself, what external law can
override “Do As Thou Wilt?” When I know
my True Will, and I don’t mean ego based desires, nothing can come in between
me and my Great Work.
But how do we know if what we are experiencing is our
Great Work? How do we differentiate
between Talker only desire and the communicated goals of our personal Holy
Trinity made one?
Will alone is only half of the Law, only half of the
equation that is our shared reality. Will
is the manifest God at work, the Masculine Principle, and I am not referring to
a physical gender. It is Yang, White,
Movement, Electric, Kinetic, or whatever term the individual has linked to this
aspect of the Divine Twins. The problem
with Will alone is that there must be balance.
In Faery lore we would talk about the Blue God out of the influence of
the Goddess, and at those times he is terrible.
He is the embodiment of base desire without consideration for the
consequences. I think we can simply look
around at the world around us and see the reality of this story. The Goddess has been removed from our
spirituality, and so corruption reigns.
But fear not!I don’t mean to imply that the Talker space we generally inhabit most of the time is a complete illusion, but rather a partial reality. In order to know the Real You, you have to bring everything into the fold.
Sunday, June 2, 2013
Kala
Kala is, in my opinion, one of the most important concepts for the early student to understand and embrace. The word Kala itself can be used to convey multiple ideas within the Tradition. The first meaning is related to the state of being. To be Kala is to be completely clean within yourself. This is an ultimate state of perfection that we strive for; to be completely unburdened by complexes a...nd blocks so that our three Souls can be in total alignment and we can shine brightly.
The next way that the term gets used is as the techniques that different lineages use to try and attain this state. The Kala Rite, or Making Kala, can and is done in a myriad of different ways, depending on one’s lineage and/or intention. One simple way is to charge a glass of water with mana, and the intention to become pure, and then to drink that water down. To a Catholic, this might seem sacrilegious, because we are basically drinking the Holy Water that we blessed ourselves, but when you look at how much of your body is water, why wouldn’t you wish to drink it? As this water leaves your stomach it becomes part of your overall water system, spreading that blessing throughout your whole body. The last phase is when you urinate next, where impurities that block your connection to spirit are purged with the rest of the toxins you expel. As most of the Feri folk I know tend to be a jovial bunch, when hanging out together we will announce our need to use the restroom by saying “I need to go finish my Kala.”
The Kala Rite is not intended to be something you do once and then you are forever clean and in the Kala state. I wish that were the case, but the reality around us tends to lend itself toward the creation of blockages within the energy body. We pick up lots of toxins as we go through our day, both physically and psychically. Some lines of Feri refer to the Fetch as the “sticky one”, because well, it grabs onto things and has a hard time letting go. Be it the anger someone sent at you because of their own road rage, or any damaging thoughts and emotions that you have yourself, when we are out in the world, outside of the Circle, outside of meditation, you get dirty. And just like we shower or bathe to keep our physical body clean, so we make Kala to keep our spiritual body just as clean.
I also want to point out that this, like many other somewhat abstract Feri concepts, is an ultimate ideal. It is something we strive for, so that in the actions we get closer to the level of perfection that we crave, but is unrealistic to expect to be 100% Kala at all times. I can safely say I have never met a single individual who was always perfectly Kala. The end goal is not the point, the point is the journey there, and it is a journey that will go beyond this single lifetime.
The next way that the term gets used is as the techniques that different lineages use to try and attain this state. The Kala Rite, or Making Kala, can and is done in a myriad of different ways, depending on one’s lineage and/or intention. One simple way is to charge a glass of water with mana, and the intention to become pure, and then to drink that water down. To a Catholic, this might seem sacrilegious, because we are basically drinking the Holy Water that we blessed ourselves, but when you look at how much of your body is water, why wouldn’t you wish to drink it? As this water leaves your stomach it becomes part of your overall water system, spreading that blessing throughout your whole body. The last phase is when you urinate next, where impurities that block your connection to spirit are purged with the rest of the toxins you expel. As most of the Feri folk I know tend to be a jovial bunch, when hanging out together we will announce our need to use the restroom by saying “I need to go finish my Kala.”
The Kala Rite is not intended to be something you do once and then you are forever clean and in the Kala state. I wish that were the case, but the reality around us tends to lend itself toward the creation of blockages within the energy body. We pick up lots of toxins as we go through our day, both physically and psychically. Some lines of Feri refer to the Fetch as the “sticky one”, because well, it grabs onto things and has a hard time letting go. Be it the anger someone sent at you because of their own road rage, or any damaging thoughts and emotions that you have yourself, when we are out in the world, outside of the Circle, outside of meditation, you get dirty. And just like we shower or bathe to keep our physical body clean, so we make Kala to keep our spiritual body just as clean.
I also want to point out that this, like many other somewhat abstract Feri concepts, is an ultimate ideal. It is something we strive for, so that in the actions we get closer to the level of perfection that we crave, but is unrealistic to expect to be 100% Kala at all times. I can safely say I have never met a single individual who was always perfectly Kala. The end goal is not the point, the point is the journey there, and it is a journey that will go beyond this single lifetime.
Friday, May 31, 2013
What is Power?
Feriesy alert!
Lately I have been thinking a lot on the Feri phrase that we
all pass along and say, “We don’t give away our power.” On the surface, this sounds great; of course
we don’t want to give away our power, and our culture has trained us since
birth to do just that. But the problem
is when something becomes dogma, and people stop thinking about what something
really means and just take it at 100% face value. I have had many people ask me about this, as
they have reached a point in their practice where their concept of not giving
away power has become problematic. We
tend to not distinguish between different types of energy in our shared Feri technical
language.
But here’s the rub, I have never met a single person, Feri
or otherwise, that NEVER gives away their personal power SOMETIMES. We all do it, and so there is no point in
berating oneself for behaving like a human being. The idea is to be aware as much as
possible. When we are aligned, when we
are centered and living in the moment, we can minimize the damage that our
psyche does to itself. We can call back
the little bits of ourselves that we have splodged away over time. We make Kala to repair and revitalize both
our Chi and our Souls. We monitor our
actions and motivations, so that in the moment we can act, not react, to the
stimulus around us. When we take charge
of our life, we stop giving away this power, while letting Chi flow through
your Fetch like the blood flowing through the soul body of the Goddess that it
is. And then we fall again, and we pick
ourselves up and start over, and each time it gets easier to do so.
Monday, May 27, 2013
The Way of Shitty Things
My personal work has been very Fetch based lately. I have been using a different focus with some Taoist mechanics to really ground into Fetch first before making HA. I have found it to be very helpful for sustainably maintaining connection to Godsoul more throughout the day, outside of meditation. Upon rereading Etheric Anatomy, I remembered the part of my training that talked about a different way to focus on the 3 souls, that of their "aura" within the body. The energy body of Fetch is the aura of your whole body that extends only about a half inch. The body of this soul is the energy of your physical body, so I have been revisiting a lot of my qigong. This ties in with healing from my injury as well. I am far from perfect here, I have a lot of work to go, as part of caring for Fetch is caring for the physical body. To be totally in 100% alignment at all times, one has to have a healthy physical body, which is very difficult. There is no judgment here. I haven't met a single person, initiate or not, who is 100% in alignment at all times, but that doesn't mean we shouldn't kindly strive for it. There is always room for improvement in everything we do, we always are growing and moving. When we think we have perfected something, it can become stagnant. If you are perfect in something, why keep at it? There is no way to improve perfection, so why try?
Most of us expect self perfection, but self perfection is an illusion, so why do we torture ourselves?
Because, for what ever reason, pain is the most effective catalyst for growth within the human condition, initially anyway. I like to think that at some point growth will come for growth's sake, but in reality if I look back on my path, it has been the very painful times that have spurred the most movement. If you are comfortable all the time, what is the drive to change? What would make you get out of bed and do something? Without discomfort, I suspect life wouldn't have evolved past single celled organisms.
But does that mean we are doomed to suffer for our whole lives? I guess that depends on who you ask. I am personally not a Buddhist, so I think that the goal is not to escape pain, but to accept it and move on. Our brains are wired to retain painful memory far more readily than pleasurable experiences. Its evolutionary, we need to remember the painful things so we can avoid them in the future. But we can make a concerted effort to remember the good things too! Why do we forget amazing, ecstatic trance experiences, but remember the mean thing our mother did to us when we were 10? The answer, with so many other things, is knowledge. By being aware of how our brains work, we become less bound by their patterns. By being in the moment, being aware, and being as aligned as we can be, we can make choices to change our patterns. But it requires action, intent, and purpose.
And then shitty things will still happen again.
But hopefully we can use the things we have learned to make those shitty events less painful and not hang on as long. We can remember "Oh, I need to do Kala now. I need to not throw this painful energy down into the subconscious abyss of Fetch. I can look at it here, look at it now, and transform it. I can take right action in the moment to minimize the fallout. I can act in Love and in True Will. I can Be!"
Monday, March 11, 2013
Good Morning Feriland
Good morning world, you sure look beautiful today. Even after needing to restabilize from the time fluctuation phenomenon that happens in the spring where it is still dark when I wake up again, girl, you got it going on.
How are you doing this morning? And by you, this time I am referring to the manifest Goddess and yet paradoxically individual deity wearing a cloak of stardust we call a body. You, reading this right now. How are you?
Did you have pleasant dreams? Less than pleasant ones? Dreams can be a powerful influence to how we start our day. Our Talkers can make judgements about experiences, say "It was 'just' a dream" (although that's a whole other topic), but Fetch can't. That is not part of that soul, it's job is to feel, to BE. Your emotional state right now reading this could be directly influenced by dreams that your Talker might not even remember having.
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Now, if you had awesome dreams of making love to your dream lover on the back of a unicorn while riding over a rainbow, you may be feeling great (That is of course unless you have a phobia of unicorns, rainbows or fucking, but if you have a fear of fucking this might not be the page for you). But less pleasant dreams may leave you feeling a bit on the poopy side.
But fear not! You are not helpless to be left to the whims of your subconscious mind! As always, the power to choose your mindset is within you. Not that just thinking "I want to be in a good mood today" will always do the trick. No, most of the time the decision has to include action. You have to decide to do the things that help you feel better. Decide to make the time to sit and breathe, to align your souls, to make kala
Or maybe you can't make that decision today, and that's okay too. Be kind in all things, and mostly to yourself. Have the same compassion to your own pain that you would to a loved one. It might make the decision easier, or it might not. But it will make your day easier.
Let love into your life, not just on the Pearl Pentacle of your relation to others, but in your own souls.
How are you doing this morning? And by you, this time I am referring to the manifest Goddess and yet paradoxically individual deity wearing a cloak of stardust we call a body. You, reading this right now. How are you?
Did you have pleasant dreams? Less than pleasant ones? Dreams can be a powerful influence to how we start our day. Our Talkers can make judgements about experiences, say "It was 'just' a dream" (although that's a whole other topic), but Fetch can't. That is not part of that soul, it's job is to feel, to BE. Your emotional state right now reading this could be directly influenced by dreams that your Talker might not even remember having.
...
Now, if you had awesome dreams of making love to your dream lover on the back of a unicorn while riding over a rainbow, you may be feeling great (That is of course unless you have a phobia of unicorns, rainbows or fucking, but if you have a fear of fucking this might not be the page for you). But less pleasant dreams may leave you feeling a bit on the poopy side.
But fear not! You are not helpless to be left to the whims of your subconscious mind! As always, the power to choose your mindset is within you. Not that just thinking "I want to be in a good mood today" will always do the trick. No, most of the time the decision has to include action. You have to decide to do the things that help you feel better. Decide to make the time to sit and breathe, to align your souls, to make kala
Or maybe you can't make that decision today, and that's okay too. Be kind in all things, and mostly to yourself. Have the same compassion to your own pain that you would to a loved one. It might make the decision easier, or it might not. But it will make your day easier.
Let love into your life, not just on the Pearl Pentacle of your relation to others, but in your own souls.
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