Wednesday, June 12, 2013

The Lady Below

Whispers sweet like honey,
Caresses in the dark recesses of my mind.
The Goddess Below has chosen
And I answer
I listen

Down into the depths of the Earth
To the Realm of the Fae
To the Land of Magic
To the Underworld
I follow

Her psychic scent stirs me
As she beckons my serpent to rise
Entranced by her beauty
That radiates beyond physicality
I rise

Spirits entwined in our Great Rite
The way to my enlightenment is clear
In our embrace she shows me
For she is my mirror
I fear

My power is more than I knew
As is the case for all
But in this moment she shows me
The Truth of my Being

I AM her consort
I AM her Twin
I AM her lover
I Am Her


Saturday, June 8, 2013

Will and Faery

I would like to preface this post saying that I am not a member of any OTO or Thelema related body.  My opinion comes from personal reading of the subject, and so I speak from that basis.
Thelema, as I have come to understand it, is very compatible with Faery in general.  My training that led up to initiation was geared toward strengthening and developing my connection to my own God Soul, or my own Holy Guardian Angel.  By opening that communication, by bringing myself into alignment with all my parts, I have tried to seek out my True Will, that which is my Great Work and purpose.  When that communication is made, the communication between the part of the self that is God, and through that God Herself, what external law can override “Do As Thou Wilt?”  When I know my True Will, and I don’t mean ego based desires, nothing can come in between me and my Great Work. 

But how do we know if what we are experiencing is our Great Work?  How do we differentiate between Talker only desire and the communicated goals of our personal Holy Trinity made one? 
Will alone is only half of the Law, only half of the equation that is our shared reality.  Will is the manifest God at work, the Masculine Principle, and I am not referring to a physical gender.  It is Yang, White, Movement, Electric, Kinetic, or whatever term the individual has linked to this aspect of the Divine Twins.  The problem with Will alone is that there must be balance.  In Faery lore we would talk about the Blue God out of the influence of the Goddess, and at those times he is terrible.  He is the embodiment of base desire without consideration for the consequences.  I think we can simply look around at the world around us and see the reality of this story.  The Goddess has been removed from our spirituality, and so corruption reigns.  But fear not!

 The second half of the Sacred Law is Love!  When we are aligned and in communion with our Godsoul, the Love of the Goddess flows through us, side by side with the Will of God.  When I am whole in all my Parts, and the Love and Sacred Compassion fills me so that my Black Heart overflows, the purpose of my Will becomes clear.  Not only am I the embodied Blue God in action of Will, but I am the Love of the Mother, and in this balance of the Twins, in this Sacred Dance I am whole! 

 Do as the REAL YOU Wills!  Love as the REAL YOU Loves! 

I don’t mean to imply that the Talker space we generally inhabit most of the time is a complete illusion, but rather a partial reality.  In order to know the Real You, you have to bring everything into the fold.

 Crowley said that we are witnessing the birth of a new aeon, what he called the Aeon of Horus, but what in a Faery context I would call the Aeon of Melek Taus.  In my lineage, the Melek Taus aspect of the overall godhead that we call the Blue God is the complete balance of the Divine Twins.  This model breaks down slightly when we bring the Goddess into the equation of the Twins, but Faery is paradox, and the totality of one Twin exists at all times within the body of the other.  The Divine Twins are the dance of the holy binary nature of reality in action.  We are entering the age of balance, of Will and Love existing together, bringing out the best of both, and tempering away the negative aspects of either.  Everywhere around us, more and more people are waking up to the spiritual reality that coexists side by side with the physical.  More and more people experience Gnosis within their religion, and when that happens, you realize that the outer forms that we connect to simply speak to a greater spiritual truth that can’t be contained within one religion.  The old Aeon is fighting back, but only because they see the writing on the wall. 

 But an Aeon is much longer than a single lifetime, and we are just seeing the beginning.  We may not get to see the balance in this temporal incarnation, but we are all faces of God Herself, and so as we grow and heal ourselves, we heal the world around us.  Gandhi said “Be the change you want to see in the world,” and this is a spiritual truth.  When we bring balance to our own lives, when we are kala and let our Love and our Light spill out into the world around us, healing happens.

 Today we all have a choice.  Do I want to continue living in the old patriarchal world view?  Do I want to be will out of balance?  Do I want to continue the cycle of damage and trauma that was our birthright?  Or do I want to embrace Love and transcend both matriarchy and patriarchy?  To embody both, to BE Melek Taus, so I can heal myself and those around me.
The choice is ours.

Sunday, June 2, 2013


Kala is, in my opinion, one of the most important concepts for the early student to understand and embrace. The word Kala itself can be used to convey multiple ideas within the Tradition. The first meaning is related to the state of being. To be Kala is to be completely clean within yourself. This is an ultimate state of perfection that we strive for; to be completely unburdened by complexes a...nd blocks so that our three Souls can be in total alignment and we can shine brightly.

The next way that the term gets used is as the techniques that different lineages use to try and attain this state. The Kala Rite, or Making Kala, can and is done in a myriad of different ways, depending on one’s lineage and/or intention. One simple way is to charge a glass of water with mana, and the intention to become pure, and then to drink that water down. To a Catholic, this might seem sacrilegious, because we are basically drinking the Holy Water that we blessed ourselves, but when you look at how much of your body is water, why wouldn’t you wish to drink it? As this water leaves your stomach it becomes part of your overall water system, spreading that blessing throughout your whole body. The last phase is when you urinate next, where impurities that block your connection to spirit are purged with the rest of the toxins you expel. As most of the Feri folk I know tend to be a jovial bunch, when hanging out together we will announce our need to use the restroom by saying “I need to go finish my Kala.”

The Kala Rite is not intended to be something you do once and then you are forever clean and in the Kala state. I wish that were the case, but the reality around us tends to lend itself toward the creation of blockages within the energy body. We pick up lots of toxins as we go through our day, both physically and psychically. Some lines of Feri refer to the Fetch as the “sticky one”, because well, it grabs onto things and has a hard time letting go. Be it the anger someone sent at you because of their own road rage, or any damaging thoughts and emotions that you have yourself, when we are out in the world, outside of the Circle, outside of meditation, you get dirty. And just like we shower or bathe to keep our physical body clean, so we make Kala to keep our spiritual body just as clean.

I also want to point out that this, like many other somewhat abstract Feri concepts, is an ultimate ideal. It is something we strive for, so that in the actions we get closer to the level of perfection that we crave, but is unrealistic to expect to be 100% Kala at all times. I can safely say I have never met a single individual who was always perfectly Kala. The end goal is not the point, the point is the journey there, and it is a journey that will go beyond this single lifetime.